[An Escape of Emotion] A new beginning ...

Today, I would like to share something I wrote about 3 years ago. From that time, my life  had a 360 degree change, and soon in a couple of weeks my life is about to change once again ... yes indeed a new beginning ... . So,  to close this huge milestone in Erika's life,  here are my thoughts which made me push forward in life ... just in case these can help someone else different sometime ...


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Lapsed by e.c.
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Dwelling Pain ... Darkness
When there is nothing else to hold you from, when your dreams were broken, when that special one is gone, when a beloved one had hurt you, when there is nothing else to do, when everything is lost, when ... you are tearing inside, dying alive and there is no one to help ... look yourself in a mirror, is that really you? or what you are making of yourself? What the circumstances, other people, the World are making you feel right now should not be the reason to drag yourself deeper into an abyss of darkness. Look at the mirror, look carefully because that same pale shadow image of you, is also screaming out for help and no one, no one but you can help ... You are wasting precious time of your life being that, a pale shadow, unhappy being... grab some courage and fight for yourself, you may even need a bit of anger to fight back and stop diminishing and degrading yourself.

　
The Rescue
If you could gather some strength to fight back and to rescue yourself from the darkness, decided to be happy, to make your days happier, despite the damage, despite the pain, despite no one understands or cares... If you could, then day after day you will be stronger to defeat pain and leave everything in the past, behind, far away where cannot hurt anymore.

After sometime, you will get to see some things you could not see before, because you were blind with pain and holding yourself from useless shams; you will suddenly realize that there is, and there was always, a completely new whole World awaiting for you ... If you could get to this point, then you are saved.

The way out
Time and volition let everything lapsed till there is nothing left, no trace of what once existed, but just blur images. Indeed, these two elements can make everything vanished or even ceased. It might be painful for a while, you might be whimsical several times, you might be doubtful and about to surrender, but if you have made up your mind, if you have made a true decision, then it is possible.
　

Retrogression
When you feel feeble try to do not look back for long, not along the way out, which yourself have built with such pain and struggle. Look ahead instead, nurture endurance! Hard are such endeavors, but you ought to get rid of all is making you unhappy, unstable, even of yourself. Get rid of those incoherent thoughts and non-sense feelings that have dragged you into the most horrible deepest darkness. I know it is painful and seems impossible, but you need to do the best you can, for no one else but for yourself.

Elation
If you have prevailed enough, one day without notice, you will feel yourself stronger and happy; and then you may, by then, had learned to appreciate the small things that make our lives alive. The sunshine on your face, a message from a friend, the smile of a stranger, a hot coffee in a cold morning, the smooth taste of honey, a warm hug, an ice-cream under an umbrella in a hot day, the rain on your face, a cloudy day, that tree across the street, a starry night ... all those little and amazing things and events that make our lives alive, and we often take for granted. If you have not yet reach to this point, you only need to pay a little more attention ... you will be surely amazed by what the World is offering you day after day. When you get to be this happy, then you will experiment that being happy brings way much more happiness, more smiles, more good energy, more good people around you, and you will discover a whole new you. Everything is reciprocal; nothing in the World is more rewarding than feel happiness for those small tiny little things, which in their turn, will transform you and make you feel pure sober happiness, then ... that day you will feel proud of what you have become and what today you can see and others cannot.

Stop falling for shams, stop living in the past, do not wait longer. That time of sorrow, shed tears, pain and struggle can be turned into inner peace, love, lots of happiness and laughs :). Smile, grab some courage, it is still a beautiful World out there. As Don Juan wrote, nothing in the World is a gift, whatever new we have to learn in this World has to be learned in the hard way, even the how to be happy. So, do not just try to be happy ... do as Ehrmann told us to, STRIVE to be.


-ec 

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